So this is Christmas…

I have been wholly concerned and distracted by the outside lately and very poor at my inner looking, even with all the quiet in my life.

I have always enjoyed the sacred calendar. One reason was because it signaled me to look inward, to be still and listen to the words and thoughts of my heart - its ruminations. I loved letting the outer theme echo inside and bring about the transformation of heart that the sacred seasons reminded us of. I am sure that I have spent many past lives in a religious order, for that type of observance rings in my heart. It is the outer reminder to look for the inner miracle. My thoughts and feeling lately have been about the loss of that sacred calendar, why it is lost and what that means to me in my life. That I can no longer find equipoise in myself with this sacred rhythm, because of newer information.

Jesus was a king who tried to overthrow the roman empire and Mary was his queen and his half-sister, that he married. Martha, her sister was married to Jesus too because as written into the law of the time if you were high priest in Jerusalem, you were required to have a backup wife… and that all three of them came out of the Egyptian family line. That maybe Jesus, a Pleadian crusader, was here at that time fighting the Roman empire (think Draco every time you hear roman, every time, anywhere, at all times) trying to reset the way earth progressed. We on the earth tend to venerate all who have powers like Christ, Jesus, who was an ascended master who maybe did come to help. But as usual, the roman/Draco invasion on earth subverted that message and we have turned it into some magical ritual that is driven by the corporatocracy (also think Draco and their minions) and money. Then we enshrined a being and separated the recognition of that higher essence from ourselves, thus making it unreachable and on the outside of our true beingness.

If you trace backward in time, once you begin to understand the M O of the people behind all the shenanigans, and realize that its always been about a war for dominance, it leads to, at least in this world round of civilization, an ancient and ONGOING war between factions that are still fighting over this planet! In this modern age, it has gone underground, meaning that the physical wars and fighting appear to be peoples on the earth fighting driven by governments, and that the rest of the dominance is being carried out as a propaganda driven mind control system powered by money. If you are reading this, you know what I mean, so I'm not going to explain it yet again.

So, I cannot in good conscience go about the 'Christmas' season and reach inside for that miracle hoping to feel it manifest in my heart anymore. It makes me deeply sad.

And so this is Christmas
For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones
The world is so wrong
And so happy Christmas
For black and for white
For yellow and red ones
Let's stop all the fight

I am coming to feel that the journey of finding my spiritual feet and learning to stand on them is long and mostly painful.

So, what is sacred? In the dictionary Sacred is defined as:

connected with God (or the gods) or dedicated to a religious purpose and so deserving veneration. Exterior worship. Truly, were we all living to our advanced potential, we would venerate and respect, Love, everything in existence, so that could be true, in a place where the perfected human walked. Where the outside was a reflection of the inside.

If we would grow-up and become spiritually adult, that means that we stand in our own sovereignty. That means nothing has rule 'over' you, no authority in your life by virtue of the level of your awareness. It means that you look inward for the sacred and you begin to understand that in the realm of the sacred, Logic and Reason have no authority. We become participants in the experience of the mystical laws merging with the physical law of matter. We become 'Christ-ed', in that we begin to know the same level of awareness.

So you see, all that we have been carefully led to believe and feed with our adoration, is nothing more than a carefully constructed control system, even if it might have started out as true and still have a micro grain of truth at the core of today's beliefs, it has now become a very confining system of control of the human spirit.

And that is the problem, isn't it? The difference between belief and knowing. Belief implies that you don't know - knowing on the other hand, knows. It comes from inner awareness - no 'belief' needed.

What I have always loved about the Christmas season was what occurred in my heart: the lovely lights, the vacation time with my family, the special meals I would cook, gifting people with things that had meaning about joy, the music (halleluiah chorus…) the celebration with friends, it all rolled into one beautiful expression of appreciation for life and love and how deeply we all cared for each other. Which is really, really, the meaning of sacred on the outside, isn't it?

So this is Christmas

And what have you done

Another year over

And a new one just begun

And so this is Christmas

I hope you have fun

The near and the dear one

The old and the young

A very Merry Christmas

And a happy new year

Let's hope it's a good one

Without any fear

And so this is Christmas

For weak and for strong

For rich and the poor ones

The world is so wrong

And so happy Christmas

For black and for white

For yellow and red ones

Let's stop all the fight

A very Merry Christmas

And a happy new year

Let's hope it's a good one

Without any fear

And so this is Christmas

And what have we done

Another year over

A new one just begun

And so happy Christmas

We hope you have fun

The near and the dear one

The old and the young

A very Merry Christmas

And a happy new year

Let's hope it's a good one

Without any fear

War is over, if you want it

War is over now

Happy Christmas